Cross roads,
Old (or) New,
Reset (or) Restart,
End (or) Beginning,
Dream(or) Reality ...
Fortunate (or) Unfortunate,
Faces of the coin (or) Perception,
Positive over negative, to ease the mind,
A lot has happened a lot is yet to happen.
Where is the destination, the finale;
Time, the teacher...unfold, as the patience gives away.
Alone in this journey, travelers come and go...
These roads spiral back to the intersection again...
Have been there before, yet again,
Surreal and magical it is ...Deja Vu.
---Deepti
This feels so familiar, have been here before ...seems like have spiraled back to the beginning.
Looks like as though never moved at all, feels so surreal, and strangely wired.
(Taking a deep breath...)
Is it being scared, surprised (or) hard to understand and assess, where logic defy the practical.
Ah! one of those situations where tell myself 'Let it go...go on...you will understand it later, time will reveal'.
Strange, the year begins with such feeling of start over.
(a quick weird smirky smile plastered on my face, seems like mocking myself).
One must have felt this feeling sometime like 'have been here before', 'have heard this before'.
Well in my case 'hey have dreamt the whole situation before' to an extent the reality fades into thin lines of unbelievability.
Once again, at the same (or) similar looking cross roads, making me wonder.
A lot of questions...majorly ...did I doze off (or) what went by was a dream ...nice.
Looks like reset button was hit and flash am here at that very cross roads... feels a bit shaky.
Trying to question and reason with myself... is it same (or) a new one. Confusing.
'See one way good, you got another chance' says the white winged guy over my right shoulder...
'You are a complete mess. Oh dear!' say that little red guy over my left shoulder.
(Weirdly am smiling on this.)
About the cross road, ready to take on a new one, but which one was taken last time ...left, right or ahead of me.
Do not want to end up in same place again.
It is not easy to keep getting back the same cross road.
To constantly telling yourself you are being made strong in the process ...nonsense...
EQ levels has gone sky rocket high in the process,cannot find a place to fit in... where truth, genuineness, creativity, simplicity, honesty matters.
Rather seeing more and more pretense, fakeness, two faced and manipulation masked (it so suffocating and stressing), cannot acceptance and simplicity be simple..phew!
Is this life ...constantly coming back to same cross road to try the options, are roads an options (or) learning...is this the journey (or) am not choosing my path and hence back to square one.
Would not it be easier if there was a guide to tell you 'Hey look this the road you were designed for ...enjoy... bon voyage'.
A thought struck as writing ...is this same cross road looking like previous...was the previous set finished and this new set, to go on with... Oh dear!
Yes nervous, jittery rather...roads again...decision again.
The cross road may be (or) look the same. But time, situation, circumstances have changed, no longer the same as before... wiser with clarity would like to say ...but feels like a fool. (Smile again run through, believe sarcastically).
Constantly the feeling this has happened before in this dimension (or) another ...Deja vu ...confusing, yet an opportunity.
