Sometimes...yet sometimes...

Funny memories, thoughts keep flying.....True, I am always thinking…someone has to think while someone has to act…..

Sometimes you do good things and sometimes you do things that hurt you, but you still do them, because you are thinking, thinking for the good, may be not for you but people around you close to you.

Strange things is you know it’s quite painful, you know this not how things should be, or things could be different, but at what cost. Today you may be happy assuming that tomorrow everything will be okay but...the fact is it would just be a compromise…I guess we cannot be selfish ..Well I cannot….

Like you may want to learn electric guitar, u so in to, crazy in to it that u forget to see it that some people around you may not like it still just for your happiness they may compromise it…
Does that make sense?

Should one always compromise, you always do good to other, that when you ask for something they have to agree because it you who is asking, for all you did all your life for them they ready to accept whatever you like, is it not a compromise in big sense….It is ….

Is life all about give and take, I don’t know, I don’t think so...may be, may be not. It is all how you see it. Sometimes…sometimes you have to let go your precious ones, precious things for to break to give and take concept in the world….

Sometimes your eyes shine with dew drop, and yet you need to smile and do against your mind and heart to fight …. To fight…to see the smile forever on other faces, close to you.

Sometimes you may have to face hatred and negative forces…sometimes…things don’t go the way u wish, you wanted …You feel the whole worlds seem to take from you, your everything.

Sometimes...you always feel that, the heart ache and you cannot take…You wish there were better way to make things right, to set things straight...happily...
Sometimes…yet sometimes...

A twinkle...a little star....

A new year has come; a new chapter has begun....
Around I see, I see smiling glowing face,
With warmth and twinkle in the eyes...
Everyone seems to be happy as a year is gone and one has come....
Celebration in air, family, friend’s neighbor all sudden seem to mingle...
Air is filled with music of all times, warmer cloths are out....
Some place the snow seems to bless and treat your eyes...
While sun seems to play hide and seek in some places.
Little children running around giggling and laughing....
Few by the side of fire warming themselves.....
People in colors red, blue white, pink...all is bright.
Strange i see all but blurred....but my heart giggles...
It seems to enjoy the giggles, the colors the warmth....

All this seem to take me back to my kiddo days...holidays from school ....celebration....
Even if I did not much, I did love watching other do.
Yah the most I remember about December ...
...The red star shaped lantern hung outside sitting area.

Every year Papa would place a red star at the sitting area.
At night it looked amazingly beautiful.
Now why a star shaped lantern...
Well I don’t know exactly may be the angle star, But down in south (Kerala),
I have seen most of house with the color star shaped lanterns hung outside the house during the month of December

Further down the memory line as I sail to ,
I see the little me...vision seem to blurred,
the little me in pearl white frock with brown dots...
looking up on all the elders so tall they seem to me,
then wondering if I would ever be, as I though everyone grew taller always.
I seem to have joined school at very early age, as I fussed to …
little did I realize the education system would ruin the genius in me.

Like anyone I too had my favourite rhymes, though I use to love making my own...
I guess it was the twinkle twinkle little star.
Favourite stars in galaxy were the Orion….strange I still watch out for them …

Twinkle Twinkle little star,
You’re the bunch of wonders so far.
How I wonder what you are,
Up above the sky so high,
Like a dream for me in the sky.

When the racing worlds is down,
When no one sees upon you,
Fast sleeping by world, you see.
Show me the magic twinkle, through the night.
Twinkle Twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are.

In the dark blue sky so deep,
Through my curtains often peep,
For you never close your eyes,
’Til the morning sun does rise.
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are.
(Modified version) ---Deepti