To speak or not to speak....

Many a time, there always confusion should you speak or should you not... Many a time, you feel it better to be silent as if you speak people take it wrong or it would worsen the situation... Many a time, we consider silence the best solution...   When you remain silent people analyze you, the way you may not be..when you speak it clears thing understanding and mind better.. but yes this applies only if the listener wants to listen ..not just listen but ready to  hear you or have the mind to hear you  ...  So to speak or not to speak is thy question now... I guess, people close to you.. a little talk solves problems, while the silence kills the solution all together. People close to you ...know you and always have open positive heart to listen (or) hear you..atleast once... 

The cute little puppies ..Independence

Somewhere behind my mind, I wanted to write this story ...it has touched my heart...the scene is so clear in my memory, that I am never bound to forget it....

A usual weekend...only unusual was 15Aug and me working on the same Sunday...

As usual heading to work place....little did I realize my flying craft (Vehicle) seem to have some problem? I got it check from a local mechanic guy who in spite of not understanding my all in one language...I try using for the other to get an idea of what I speak....Final outcome of that was there was an issue with air filled in the tires...now this was fun ....

I looked around almost all shops were closed...people on roads with flag in hand ...few walking with their toddlers...few all pepped up for march past....all sudden the patriotic feeling was floating in air...

Strange 365 days just 2 days the patriotic feeling is high...else no one bothers....all sudden the flag of the country holds its importance that day ...various parts of city holds up meeting where greatness of great leaders is reminded...award distributed..National song echoes every street....

All sudden as usual... I went into the thinking mode....I decided to ride further ask the locals for help me locate a puncher shop...at one place I asked the local in mix of Malayalam/ Tamil, as I conclude kanada was similar ....the local gave me a blank look...another man who seem to have understood me was telling that guy in kanada the location for puncher shop...I directly asked this another man...he gave me a cold look and bluntly asked me 'Do not I know kanada?' I said I don’t, else I would not had to struggle ...prompt came a reply ...'You are in Karnataka ...you need to know kanada'....I got so frustrated .....

Quickly though ran to my mind, now tomorrow I go to Japan I need to learn that language. If I go to Spain ...do I need to learn Spanish....crazy idea altogether....I just hated the idea of all places I was in so called Silicon Valley of India. I was like why am I altogether in India.....

Strange I was enveloped in so many thoughts...I saw the flag fluttering ....I somehow lost my feeling for it for a while....63 year of Independence...we still so small at heart...

The country was split into states for better management and development of the state...but the manager of the state declared them self the rulers..the country lost its goal ...now it was fight for languages priority, my state water your state water, my state electricity your state electricity..

matter that are not so important ...rather not to be even given a thought. But they become the headlines....

I honestly feel so sorry for our country...Yes there was a time I did think I should join politics...but I knew it well ..with these ideologies....I, myself would become a news headlines...and forgotten .

Why? is all I can ask...doesn’t the manager of state have a heart ..don’t they feel guilty ....are they always aggressive...Will our lok sabha be in headlines for people throwing slipper at each other and abusing each other.....

Will always the criminals get away with loopholes in the law, will the poor always suffer...it quite painful...this is true daker side of our country...

I guess we would have been better if we did not get the independence/ so called freedom...at least those heroes who contributed big or small ...gave their lives for this country.. would not have been heroes and would have happily lived their lives.

Why does not everyone know the universal language...what was the purpose of it ...what was the purpose of the national language...

A though even crossed my mind ..it would have been better, if the creator had made each man dumb and deaf...the argument over language would completely finish ....but he wanted us to enjoy his creations...and we...don’t bother but fight over trivial matter of less importance ..hear news of pain sorrow...hatred...violence...all for what ? At what cost....

A golden bird once this country was ...golden soil as it termed it....is losing all it charms ..in figures we may give high number...educated...best labors...developing....I wonder from school time I kept hearing ..developing country ...63 year and still developing ....or rather a safe term to use must say...

With really sad mind..with so many thoughts in my mind....I drove to find a puncher repair shop..Finally I found one ..a small boy ..playing with many puppies ...

I asked him in same mixed language...he happily smiled..checked the wheels of my vehicle....told me the problem and began fixing...watching the puppies ..I asked him if they were his...he happily replied yes (all the conversation goes in mixed language)...I was so moved...in spite of speaking mixed language he understood exactly what I was saying....and worked on....

If someone wants to understand you, wants to help and listen to you ..no matter what language you speak ...they would ...but if they have kept in mind ...this state will speak this language only outsiders not allowed.....Who is outsider...this is one Country....we all are Indians...

In that case our cultures have spoken of respecting outsiders as god ....then why such indifference...

I played with the puppies...cute adorable one ....when small ..they so much sheltered by their mother...are these elected bodies in the same role....to shelter , look after it population....rather than coming up with unrealistic idea spending cores on them, keeping half in everyone pocket whoever is involved..scraping the same later and giving another unrealistic plan....

When will our country really grow...when will it be back the same golden bird...it looks like the vultures are preying on this golden bird and no one is there to help out....just 2 day we remember 'Our Country'...'Our Flag'...'Our National anthem'....I am glad atleast we have freedom of speech.

My vehicle was done....I started back to my work place...I turned and looked around...I saw the boy standing and all the puppies looking at the way I was going ....I was wondering if this boy too would forget the there is only one language of humanity, gentleness and kindness...will this society again corrupt such growing bud....

.....those little puppies happily wagged their tail following the little boy.....

Shadows....

They are there and yet they are not there....
You feel them a company and yet they intrude your loneliness.
Sometimes you tend to be or you pretend to be what you are not....but your shadows are pure they are what you are...

They seem to have no features ..details like you but they are outlines of who you are...who really you are....they keep popping to tell you if you are in wrong way...I guess that is why we always have guilt if things are done wrong knowingly....

They seem to be friends with us and we can play with them when the candles are lit and darkness surrounds us.They seem to frighten us when we do somethings wrong, they seem to give us company when we are alone...they seem to whisper to.....

We fear them when we are wrong
They are there and yet they are not...
They are near, yet cannot touch them ,
They are there ...all we can see.
They smile...smile watching us....yet we realise not....shadows...

Time travel ....Mind /Soul

Travel through time...if true would be like dream come true...
I sometimes wonder, human is so curious to conquer over time, pervious births, past future...
Does anyone seriously think of today, the present they live in ....
I admit, I am no different, think for the future, curious about it...In the pursuit I forget today.

Mythology have always mentioned of souls travelling around, while physically they are somewhere else..I used to be amazed with the thought of it ..
But suddenly i realised now, may be it is true...It has happened to everyone, may be we did not notice...

How strange,that your mind is in another world, somewhere else and you are physically are in another world ...Wahoo!!! Do we call this Soul/Mind travel...may be?
Remember the school times when teacher used to try get back our attention to class....or the meeting where we are listening though our mind is else where....
Many times we tend to name it love etc....or we name it tension /pressure...
Probably we d'not want to sound insane ...we always have a reason to justify our soul/mind travelling across time.

Memories....yah they are like data stored in the brain ....but are they stored like a video ..or like a bookmark to that particular episode...where our soul/ mind would travel through time and we visualise the whole episode unfold, as though we watching a recorded movie.... strange we are physically are not at the same time where our mind/sould travel... to that chapter of past ... memories... Amazing, we can visualise it crystal clear ... even the minute details....

Time travel of our Mind, our Soul ...I guess it is free has its own will, little does one realise we donot have much of control over it...name it anything.. we are blessed by this unusal powers...little did we realize it ....

We are humans...we tend to chase for what we donot posses...we tend to overlook our strenghts, we tend to ignore our special powers in the pursuit of the powers beyond...

A drop of dew....

A tiny little ball of dew, reflecting rainbow…that rolls down … It means …life, pain, joy, excitement and freshness…just one need to read them… 

When it rains and the drop rolls over from the leaf...leaving it with a feeling of freshness…both the nature and the viewer... 

The little drop, speaks emotions of mankind When surprised unexpected with joy, excitement …with a big hug, screams, jumping around … 

When you leave your dear ones or dear one leave you…these drops make you realize how close you are with your dear ones… 

 When heart is happy warm...they always greet with a smile….. But when a heart breaks…when heart is restless, when the heart want to speak and no one to listen…these drops speak it all….with pain with helplessness they surround you. Like they are hugging you, saying ‘you are still alive, and we are with you’. 

 Those drops which one has to hide with the smiles….’Keep smiling and world would smile with you’….but only ones who know u know...those drops...those tears…those chocked up locked up feeling… 

 Tears…they say it all ….God made them or Heart…debatable one… 

But mine shall always be locked in heart …with a smile…. 

Watching the drops the sky showers gently on the nature... 

With the cool gentle breeze…. 

Stars above…peeping between the clouds ….twinkling…. 

whispering ...’we are there…always’...

A drop of dew says it all...

Sometimes...yet sometimes...

Funny memories, thoughts keep flying.....True, I am always thinking…someone has to think while someone has to act…..

Sometimes you do good things and sometimes you do things that hurt you, but you still do them, because you are thinking, thinking for the good, may be not for you but people around you close to you.

Strange things is you know it’s quite painful, you know this not how things should be, or things could be different, but at what cost. Today you may be happy assuming that tomorrow everything will be okay but...the fact is it would just be a compromise…I guess we cannot be selfish ..Well I cannot….

Like you may want to learn electric guitar, u so in to, crazy in to it that u forget to see it that some people around you may not like it still just for your happiness they may compromise it…
Does that make sense?

Should one always compromise, you always do good to other, that when you ask for something they have to agree because it you who is asking, for all you did all your life for them they ready to accept whatever you like, is it not a compromise in big sense….It is ….

Is life all about give and take, I don’t know, I don’t think so...may be, may be not. It is all how you see it. Sometimes…sometimes you have to let go your precious ones, precious things for to break to give and take concept in the world….

Sometimes your eyes shine with dew drop, and yet you need to smile and do against your mind and heart to fight …. To fight…to see the smile forever on other faces, close to you.

Sometimes you may have to face hatred and negative forces…sometimes…things don’t go the way u wish, you wanted …You feel the whole worlds seem to take from you, your everything.

Sometimes...you always feel that, the heart ache and you cannot take…You wish there were better way to make things right, to set things straight...happily...
Sometimes…yet sometimes...

A twinkle...a little star....

A new year has come; a new chapter has begun....
Around I see, I see smiling glowing face,
With warmth and twinkle in the eyes...
Everyone seems to be happy as a year is gone and one has come....
Celebration in air, family, friend’s neighbor all sudden seem to mingle...
Air is filled with music of all times, warmer cloths are out....
Some place the snow seems to bless and treat your eyes...
While sun seems to play hide and seek in some places.
Little children running around giggling and laughing....
Few by the side of fire warming themselves.....
People in colors red, blue white, pink...all is bright.
Strange i see all but blurred....but my heart giggles...
It seems to enjoy the giggles, the colors the warmth....

All this seem to take me back to my kiddo days...holidays from school ....celebration....
Even if I did not much, I did love watching other do.
Yah the most I remember about December ...
...The red star shaped lantern hung outside sitting area.

Every year Papa would place a red star at the sitting area.
At night it looked amazingly beautiful.
Now why a star shaped lantern...
Well I don’t know exactly may be the angle star, But down in south (Kerala),
I have seen most of house with the color star shaped lanterns hung outside the house during the month of December

Further down the memory line as I sail to ,
I see the little me...vision seem to blurred,
the little me in pearl white frock with brown dots...
looking up on all the elders so tall they seem to me,
then wondering if I would ever be, as I though everyone grew taller always.
I seem to have joined school at very early age, as I fussed to …
little did I realize the education system would ruin the genius in me.

Like anyone I too had my favourite rhymes, though I use to love making my own...
I guess it was the twinkle twinkle little star.
Favourite stars in galaxy were the Orion….strange I still watch out for them …

Twinkle Twinkle little star,
You’re the bunch of wonders so far.
How I wonder what you are,
Up above the sky so high,
Like a dream for me in the sky.

When the racing worlds is down,
When no one sees upon you,
Fast sleeping by world, you see.
Show me the magic twinkle, through the night.
Twinkle Twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are.

In the dark blue sky so deep,
Through my curtains often peep,
For you never close your eyes,
’Til the morning sun does rise.
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are.
(Modified version) ---Deepti